Making today the day to look back on
Years ago I used to stream on twitch. I hope to get back to it someday. May use the same channel. May start from 0. May start on a new platform. But I'd like to get back into it.
That's beside the point though. One thing I liked to end off my streams with was the phrase "Always make tomorrow amazing". Since my streams always ran late into the night, it was a reminder that today is over. Whatever you think you have to do, whether that's cram for an exam, get that last little bit of work done before you really clocked off for the night, or what have you, that tomorrow is always there. Even if you need to wake up early tomorrow, tomorrow will always come and it will get done. It's a reminder that it's okay to rest even when it feels like you'll never move past the thing you're working on right now.
It's something I've always tried to do ever since I first came up with it, a personal philosophy if you will, and sometimes all you can do is try, but I'm starting to think the secret isn't trying to rest and tackle the next day, it's simply and truly and effortlessly giving yourself permission to relax, and I think today is a great example of that.
Tonight I went to see Shakespeare with my roommates and a couple of our friends. It was The Tempest and it was a great show. Unfortunately, before we left, there was a huge rainstorm, and about an hour before we went home, it just about pissed down rain. But even that couldn't sour my mood. I was there with five amazing friends that if a couple of us hadn't moved in together a while back, I don't know if we would have been all that close. The past few years, I realized, I haven't had to try to make life amazing, their presence has helped make it effortless. That's not to say it's been perfect, but the past few years have really been some of the best of my life, and like the title says, I think in time, when we eventually part ways and move on with our lives (not anytime soon mind you), this will be a time I will truly look back on with fondness and warm feelings. Sometimes I worry I romanticize the past, but how I feel today (and many other days), makes me realize that when I am looking back on this time, the fuzzy feelings will be coming from a place of deep truth.
S, S, T, J, and K, the past few years have been some of my best, you are all truly irreplaceable in my heart, and I love you all so much 💖💖💖💖
~Mode